I'm Scared

Okay so I know I already blogged today but I can't wait any longer for this one.

I'm scared and worried.

I don't want to grow up, well I do, but I'm worried about having to take care of myself.

I know it's more than a year away, but I'm going to have to move out soon.

I'll have to provide for myself, and living costs a lot of money. I'll have to buy my own clothes, food, cleaning supplies, furniture, washer and dryer, silverware, sheets, books, socks, and who knows what else?

I'm worried, how am I going to pay for myself?

I have to go to school, I don't even know how I'm going to pull off paying for that.

I'm really worried.

What's gonna happen when I don't have any money for food anymore? Or gas?

I'm scared.

And even if I can somehow get all of that somehow taken care of, I'm going to be by myself.

I hate being by myself, ask Kim, she knows better than anyone. Being by myself is my worst fear. And pretty soon I'm going to be by myself. All the time.

I am freaking out inside this head of mine.

I don't know how I'm ever going to do this. I need to get a job now.

I'm still a little girl. I mean I want to grow up, but at the same time I'm very, very scared.