Life is much different out on your own. I know I've been on my own for more than a year now, but it hasn't hit me until this summer.
Living with Tara, I didn't have many responsibilities. It was much like living at home. I only had one bill, I lived with my boys and my aunt and uncle.
Ever since I was 15, my goal has been to get back to this neighborhood. Well, I'm back and more confused than ever.
I'm walking blindly through a forest called life and it's getting very overwhelming.
Bills suck.
Boys suck.
Like I said on facebook...I wish I could fast forward my life to where I know what I'm doing and I'm settled down.
I know I've always been against marriage but I think I've changed my mind. I want someone who will take care of me. I want someone I can take care of. I want to cook dinner for my husband and I want to be a stay at home mom.
There are good things in my life.
I have a few awesome friends. I've been cutting people out because I'm tired of people who make me feel like I'm not worth anything. So I'm happy with who I have right now. I've surrounded myself with people who love me and treat me like I matter.
I have an amazing family who is always there for me. My sisters rock. My parents rock. My extended family rocks.
I don't know what's going on in my head anymore....
